We’ve been dancing a lot to Pharrell around here. Why? Because we received my CT scan results and we’re happy. It appears as though the chemo has done its job. My cancer looks dead!!! An answer to prayer. We are very excited, but also cautiously waiting until surgery and receiving the pathology report to really celebrate.
I had my scan while I was as sick as a dog. Every time I had to hold my breath in the scanner it felt like I was choking back vomit. It was an experience. I just closed my eyes and kept repeating “be still” over and over. That was to keep from ralphing everywhere. But it soon became, “Be still and know that I am God” over and over in my head. I didn’t even think about it. The thought just kept repeating itself in my head, over and over. Whatever you put into your mind will come back out when you need it the most. And I didn’t throw up. I actually felt much better when it was over.
As soon as I got out of the machine the radiologist questioned something he found above my right hip. I told him I was just given a shot just a few minutes ago (I’m still on Lupron). He told me that explained the sack of fluid he found in the scan. Of course, in typical Kim fashion, as soon as I realized he was watching my scan in real time I asked one thousand questions. Do I still have cancer? Can you see the tumor? Did it spread? Am I okay??? Did the chemo work????? He just laughed with or at (still not sure) me. He kindly told me he can’t tell me anything; I have to wait to meet with my doctor. That wait was one week long. Do you have any idea how long that week felt?
We met with my oncologist a week later, and he said my scans look good!! My tumor appears to have shrunk like a raisin. And that spot on my spine is not cancer! It’s a really long word that I can’t pronounce, or in this case spell, and it’s just some blood vessels that look like a spider web and just show up on my scans.
Next step is surgery and then he’s prescribing radiation. We won’t know for sure until we get my pathology report on the tumor, but as of right now I’ll have a little under six weeks of radiation. It also depends on how my body responds to the radiation; we may have to take it a little slower since my complexion is so fair. I’ll hopefully start that two weeks after surgery. It all depends on how well my wounds heal and what the radiation oncologist thinks. Oh yeah, there’s going to be another doctor in charge of my radiation. I cannot keep these doctors or appointments straight. I’ve double booked myself and my children’s appointments twice now.
My surgery is scheduled on October 21. To say I cannot wait would be an understatement. I’m also getting my port removed during that procedure, which they usually don’t do so soon. They usually wait to get the pathology report and make sure no more chemo is required. My doctor told us there really isn’t any more chemo for me, other than a clinical trial, that he could prescribe. So the port’s coming out. I am so, so excited. It’s like Christmas in October.
He also reduced my Lupron shots down from one year to just five more months.
Dear Tim, only five more months of crazy Kim.
I’m so glad to be done receiving chemotherapy. So glad to be moving on to a “next step.” Just need to get my numbers up and get over these side effects of chemo. That will take a while, I know. I keep trying to do “normal” things and then my body reminds me that it has not even been three weeks since we last pumped it with poison. You win body, you win.
I’m off to nap, only to wake, eat and sleep again. Sweet napping dreams!
I cried with joy when Annie told me of scan results! Thank you, Jesus!🎉
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I so love you and am excited for you. Every time I read your posts I cry….knowing that life is SO hard at times, but SO” thankful that you serve the same God that I do and that HE is carrying you and and your family through these difficulties. Thank you for sharing your heart so freely! Today I was reading in Phil 2…”Yes, and I will continue to rejoice, for I know that through your prayers and the help given by the Spirit of Jesus Christ, what has happened to me will will turn out for my deliverance. I eagerly expect and hope that I will in no way be ashamed, but will have sufficient courage so that now as always Christ will be exalted in my body, whether by life or by death. For to me, to live is Christ and to die is gain.” there was a lot more in this passage that encouraged me because it does seem that life can just be overwhelming at times….but again….I AM so thankful for His goodness and that fact that He is near and does deliver!!! The victory is ours and all we need to claim it! Paul wrote this while in prison and we all have our prisons, but we have a faithful deliverer. I will continue to pray for you and your family that you will continue to have sufficient courage and press on to see deliverance. Sleep well!
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I, too, was diagnosed with triple negative breast cancer last year. I have completed 5 months of chemotherapy, had a double mastectomy, 2 months of oral chemo, and just had my reconstructive surgery last Friday. Would love to talk with you to share information we have both received regarding this diagnosis, if you are interested. I’m looking for every avenue to reduce the odds of this aggressive cancer recurring. Below is my story.
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So glad to hear good news! I love your heart Kim, so much realness and vulnerability. You are incredible 💕
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Such good news, Kim! I’ve been waiting and waiting for this post. XOXO
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All I know about you is what I’ve read in your blog. Each time I read it, I sit on the edge of my chair, holding my breath, waiting to hear “good news” good report”, etc, about this brave woman I’ve never met. Tonight I rejoice with you and your family! I’m thanking God for carrying you through so far! And I know he will carry you through the radiation as well! This is the home stretch:) hugs to you and Tim! Thank you for sharing your Journey. Please keep sharing. Thank you for your honest, raw, real, look into one of the scariest times of your life.
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Kimmi, I cannot tell you how much I love you or how much we are rejoicing over this news with you! I have tears streaming down my face as I’m saying over and over, ” Thank you Jesus”!! God is so good! We are still praying as you continue through theses next steps, knowing God is holding you and your family securely in His loving and faithful arms!!❤️🙏🏻❤️🙏🏻❤️🙏🏻❤️🙏🏻❤️🙏🏻❤️🙏🏻
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